Y'all I think I'm in love...
At 23, I've never been in a relationship, or even had the desire to be in one honestly.
I've, for the most part, been content with being single and by myself, but comparison triggers me. Seeing others around my age happy and in love, and really giving life their all... together, and as a unit, is my #goals.
I've been cursed to love love, and it's something that I just can never seem to get within my reach. Now don't get me wrong, I cherish the love I get from my family and friends, but sometimes life comes at you fast. You start picturing your future and realizing that right now, in the present, you're no where close to having what you want.
But that's where the fun lies.
I have literally spent nights crying thinking that I'm unloveable. That no one wants me. That I'm doomed to be single forever, but then I wake up the next day reminded that I'm still breathing.
Everyday I can wake up and have another chance at making myself better, and wiser, and happier, is a blessing. Everyday, I'm molding myself into the woman I think is the perfect wife. I'm becoming the queen that was built for a worthy king, and it makes me excited.
I think I'm finally in love with that girl -- scratch that, I mean that young woman -- and the comparison to others and their relationships is slowly starting to phase me less and less.
I just hope that in the future, whomever I end up falling in love with, we'll both be happy and honest and genuine with each other even when times are hard.
And I hope for my #SSLHFam that you are blessed with real love and genuine happiness, because you deserve it just as much as anyone else.
